Waiting time...

I've completed 38 weeks successfully. Buddamma can come at any time. We are so excited to receive you. Ofcourse, I'm feeling very nervous about delivery. Doctor is checking my cervix since 36th week. Today also, she checked but there's nothing happening. Cervix is still way high and up not yet started dilating. On the other hand, Dr doesn't want to wait till 40weeks also, she wants to induce labor at 39th week itself. Seeing the cervix position, Dr. told that it could be hard labor!!! God, I'm so nervous. I decided to walk like crazy this week atleast 4hrs daily. I'm still coming to office, this Friday would be my last day and taking personal day off on monday and maternity leave starts from Tuesday onwards. This week is really tough to come to office but pushing myself hard to do this to have more vacation after buddamma comes. Only this

thought keeps me motivated. If I could be home for 3months after buddamma comes, it's so good for both of us. I want to take care of you buddamma, feeding, diapering, bathing, etc... My mom is there to help me out in everything. I'm so bad in holding the babies don't know how I'll manage buddamma. But I'm sure my baby is going to teach me everything. As the time passes, delivery date is getting close by, our imaginations about buddamma also increasing. Everyone has their own imaginations about you like your nose will be like this, color like that etc...

I'm hoping that you've Daddy's hands, feet and nose. They are the best in Dad. Ofcourse

Dad's hair is also very good. And ofcourse the mind, smartness should be inherited from

Dad. Height can be either of us but good to have from Dad. From me, I want you to have

color, eyes and hair. These are the best in mommy :). These are all my wishes.

Dad hopes you to have only color from me or either of your grandma's (amma and nanamma)

and rest all from Dad or Tummala's family only. Buddamma ela vuntavo....chaana exciting gaa vundi.

You know, after seeing the scanning nose is confirmed that you got from Tummala's only but not sure whether it's from Atta or Nanna. I hope it's from Nanna only. Whenever we see your mouth shape we get so tensed because it looks very weird, I guess you always cover it with your beautiful hands in every scan. I'll show you all those pictures once you are ready to understand. You hate ultrasound or non stress test so much that as soon as I get into Dr's office you fell asleep. Dr. has to wake you up by making noise. You move your hands or legs for 2mins as a sign of discomfort or disturbance and again you sleep!! Bangaram, did you get sleep from Amma? We also hope for the same :-) Laddamma. I've to drink ice cold water to wake you up but that hardly helps. But surprisingly, you react so well to Daddy's voice. Nanna daily says "Buddamma, this is daddy, I love you so much". You start dancing to that :). Are you Daddy's pet? Nanna is so eager to see you. He shows me how he'll carry you on his hands and how he'll take care of you. You know, Daddy wants to carry you with your head in his palm and body on the hand. That would come to half of his hand. He imagines as if you are there and kisses you :). Also daily, nanna puts oil on my stomach and do massage imaging he's comforting you. How lucky you are to have such a loving Dad.

Amma took gold jewellery set for you, it's so big that you can wear it in your marraige also. I already wore it for baby shower :). Also, she took so many dresses for you and those tiny shoes are so pretty. I couldn't stop laughing seeing them. They are so cute. Nannamma took pattu langalu for you. Pinni took colorful gowns. I'll take pictures in all these. Your Tatamma (Nanamma's mother) is also excited about you. She hopes you'll get nose from Chinna (that's what they call your Daddy) and rest all from me. It's so good to hear about you from different people.

We love you Bangaru Talli.....

Buddamma playing Hide and seek game!

Today went for regular doctor check up in Torrance, Dr.Nylor. Non stress test went fine and then ultrasound started. I'm so eager to see her nose shape because in the last pictures it looks very differnt. But my buddamma, being very smart holding her hands towards me and sleeping

tightly :). Can't even see her face also. This time only her back. Bangaru talli, hiding from scan and sleeping :-). Doctor tried to wake her up and turn around her face but her will power is so strong not to turn around. She woke up but tightly holding to me facing towards me rather than

outside. Buddamma doesn't have mood to see us :). Oh! Daddy didn't come today for ultrasound that's why she got angry. Now I realized it. Today my husband has work so couldn't come with me. My brother dropped me at the doctor's office and I alone went for check up. She must be angry with dad. Doctor took all the measurements and told that she's doing fine and normal.

This is where we found out that she got the cord around her neck. I'm so worried about her now, how does she get oxygen, whether she's able to breathe properly or not. Does she wrap it so tightly that it may choke her!!! Too many questions and too many worries. I hope she'll

be fine and healthy with God's blessings. I'm reading garbarakshambika slokam. May Goddess Parvati bless both of us. One of my friend has given me this slokam and explained me how it helped her.

http://www.starsai.com/garbarakshambigai.html

Excited week

Lot of things have happened this week. Monday was my baby shower. It was Dasara, an auspicious day. Buddamma, you have God's blessings. We invited only our close friends, 6 families and celebrated it. Ordered food from outside. My husband and brother did all the decoration. It was soo good, will upload the pictures. I've wear the saree and then started the ceremony. It all took place from 7PM to 8PM on Monday. First, mom has given me a pattu saree and then in-laws one. When I first saw the pattu saree, I didn't like at all and started scolding my mother that you are wasting money blahblah.... But when I wore that, oh my GOD! it's so beautiful and I actually looked gorgeous in that saree. Later, in-laws saree was presented by mom as mother-in-law is not here. That also looks good. Harathi was given to me by mom and

friends. Buddamma, you are going to be fine. Tuesday, went for regular doctor appointment. My baby was moving fine so test didn't take longer. So far, she's good. Tuesday, wednesday and Thursday are very long days in the work. Again, friday i.e. today went to Dr.Neilor for regular

check up. Sugars are under control. Buddamma looks fine. But he told me one thing at which I got so scared. My buddamma has umbilical cord wrapped around her neck. Bangaru talli,

neeku aadukodaaniki emee ledantara? Cord ni neck ki chuttukunte neekemi avutundo ani bhayam gaa vundi... Doctor assured me that it's very normal and 25% of the babies do born with the cord around their neck and both of his kids were born like that. Though I seem to be fine at doctor's office, I'm actually very scared and thinking too much about it. After coming to office, immediately I started reading the stuff over net. Some say it's very common and nothing to worry and some say it's very dangerous and mother might end up in having c-section.

I'm worrying more about our buddamma rather than me. Want my bangaru talli safe and sound. I called up my mom and asked if that causes any problems. My mom also assured me that

everything is going to be fine. God, please take care of our Bangaru Talli.